A disabled trans man of color, who is self-diagnosed with AuDHD, moved to Portland with two cats. Despite receiving some aid, his mental and physical disorders have become more challenging, and he finds the expected recovery pace unrealistic. Having worked various jobs, including mill tech, he is now focused on writing, drawing, and singing, with interests in philosophy and psychology outside Western capitalism. Seeking safety and freedom, he wants to protect his joy without engaging with systems causing his CPTSD.